Wednesday, June 26, 2013

What a Long Strange Trip it's Been....

Ash Wednesday was my last post. If I knew then what life had in store for me shortly after, I would have forewarned you that I might not be back for awhile. Yes, indeed, it's been a long strange trip. Life got really complicated since my last post. I didn't have any idea how to verbalize what was happening to me it was so painful. I thought many times over the past several months about coming here to share my experience with you, but I just couldn't bring myself to share. Somethings are just too personal to splash across the Internet for all to see. At least for now. Maybe down the road, it won't hurt so much to talk about it (or even think about it). Maybe then I will share.

So a quick update to tell you that I am still alive and kicking and I have done some major soul searching over time and I am finding myself at a new starting point yet again. I have ended a 4 yr relationship and I had to come to grips with my choices and deal with a lot of change. It's ok though, because just like I have shared before with you, "it'll all work out"- thanks again Ed Lyle. Painful endings quietly become new and promising beginnings, this I know. God has a plan for me. If only I could stop trying to run the show. I have said this over and over again in my blog. I give it over to God and then snatch it back because somehow I always end up thinking I know what's best for me. I think I got it this time. Somehow when you land flat out on the ground wondering what just happened, things start to come into focus and you can clearly see that some things in life are just not meant to be.

I am looking forward to my future. My girls and I are taking some much needed time to regroup as a family and we are pressing forward together. Life is about to get really busy for me. Looking forward to the challenges that lie ahead. I can handle this, I got this, I can do it! It's good to be back in the saddle again. Much love to you all.