Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Jenny McCarthy is MY HERO!!!

Not only is she hot and shares a great name with me (McCarthy is my maiden name)...she is a mom like me that loves her child with autism. I watched with baited breath today as she appeared on The Oprah Winfrey Show promoting her new book, LOUDER THAN WORDS.

She is awesome and she said it. She said it on national television. She said she thought her sons autism was caused from his vaccines. I love her for saying that. Someone famous is saying what I have been saying for 3 long years. She made me feel validated somehow that I am NOT crazy.

Jenny McCarthy, I love you. Thank you for being the voice to all the moms who love their sick kids so much. We just want them to get better you know. We just want them to be well and be normal and is that so bad?

I love how she starts her book by saying, if your child is diagnosed with cancer, people flock around and pray for you and make you dinner and rally around you. If your child is diagnosed with autism, people look the other way and avoid you at the grocery store. They look the other WAY!. Go back and read that again: They look the other way. They whisper under their breath and say mean things about you like, "why can't she make that kid behave?" or "what is WRONG with that child???" I know this to be true for I have experienced it first hand many, many times while on trips to the store or in a restaurant.

SO, today is my Anniversary and my hubby didn't even get me a friggin card. He called me this morning and left me a message after he left for work, b/c he never said anything to me before he left. I didn't get the message until after work at around 3:30pm. I can't believe he didn't even get me a card.

They said on Oprah today that 80% of all marriages with ASD kids end in divorce. I understand that statement completely. I wonder sometimes how we have managed to hang on for these past 4 years (we have been married for 8), especially when my husband can't even remember to go buy me a friggin card. Nice, huh? No wonder I have stress in my life.

So, tomorrow I have the day off work and I will be volunteering at the kids' school all day. I will be having a special talk with Ivy's class about her autism while I am there at the school. Can't wait!

peace people!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Awake when I should be sleeping

Can’t sleep...

.....cuz I took a siesta after work today and now I am wide awake when I should be sleeping.
Geese louise, the past month has been a complete blur. Work, well, it's stressful. It's times like these that I wish I was a responsible drinker, cuz I could sure stand an ice cold Coors Light right about now. But, I can't drink responsibly, I am banned from the sport forever, so I can only dream about it and remember when. I guess I drank enough when I was younger to last the stretch of my entire life. Brother, I can say for sure, that I ALWAYS had a good time in those days. And although, I wouldn't trade my life now for what I had back in the day....I do miss me some Coors Light every now and then. Yes, sirree, I do.

So, my goal for September? To wean myself off Diet Coke. I started yesterday and so far, my big fat butt is dragging. I normally consume 2 if not 3 of the 32oz Polar Pops from Circle K a day. I have only had two 8 oz cans in the past 2 days. Life sucks about now for Lisa. No alcohol, no cigarettes and now no dang Diet Coke. I am convinced though, it is the one thing holding me back from eternal healthiness. It should be called crack in a can. I got a monkey on my back like coming down off heroin. I want my Diet Coke. I have been drinking that crap for over 10 years now and it's just time to say good-bye to it. My stomach and my esophagus will love me for it, I am sure.
Okay and last, but not is a shout out and a prayer to all those who lost their lives on 9/11/01. Here is to all the people they left behind. My heart bleeds for the ones left behind. Always remember, never forget.
Peace people.

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Days just blur into one another....

A week just passed and I barely noticed that I haven't done crapola to my house. I was literally exhausted as I awoke this morning. I wasn't ready for the day. I wanted to hide all day like last weekend.

I think I need a bottle up pick me up or something. I can't live much longer in my pajamas. I stink most likely. My plan is to get busy tomorrow. I am such a loser. What is wrong with me? I hate that summer is slipping away, and like my flower bed...I feel all shriveled up and ugly. I always get so depressed this time of year. When most people welcome the change of season, I dread it. It means winter is coming. Winter SUCKS. I hate winter. I loathe it. It depresses the shit out of me. I have entered the pre-hibernation mode. That and my job is sucking the life out of me. That is a whole other issue though.

In the grand scheme of things, my life is good, but I feel like complaining here, in secret...away from my family. :)

Saturday, September 1, 2007


Oh glorious THREE DAY WEEKEND!!!!

Can you say in your jammies ALL DAY?? This is the first weekend in ages, we have no set plans and intend to take full advantage of the fact.

Yes, can betchyoursweetass that I will be sitting on my sofa, eating orange popsicles and watching corny movies like Blades of Glory and Wild Hogs. I am gonna get my laugh on peeps. I need a good laugh.

Life has been too, too dang serious this past week.

I will not complain however. I will keep trudging the road to happy destiny. I promise.

After all, life is good right? About as good as you make it I say.