Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Summer's Over, Let's Recap

Well, I tried out the "not blogging" thing and to be honest, I miss it. So apparently I still have something to say or I wouldn't be here right now making a new post. :)

So summer's over for me as I am back to work full-time at the school since Monday. My own kids do not return to school until August 24th this year so that did create a bit of a hassle for me this time around. Thank God for Ed's mom who volunteered to watch them for me until Thursday. I am not sure who is going to keep them beyond that. I'll figure it out when it gets here I guess.

So I figured now would be a great time for me to do some reflecting and recap my summer. I don't think I can complain any. Summer is my most favorite season out of the four and I had a pretty lazy summer until the past few weeks. The girls and I went spent two glorious weeks in California with Mommy in July and it was both relaxing and rejuvenating to be there. I can know without a doubt that when I go home to visit, I can kinda center myself and recharge my batteries. There is just something about that ocean air that keeps calling my name....

So aside from our trip, we have had plenty of opportunities to hang out by the pool and relax. My cousin Tracy and her family came from New York for a short visit and it was good to see my girls bonding and playing with her girls, I captured some great moments on film of the girls while they were here. I was grateful for the opportunity to share some time with my cousin as well.

My mom and Cal came to visit us too. Although their trip was cut really short after Cal injured his shoulder playing golf and thought he might need surgery to repair a torn rotator cuff. So they packed up and went back home a few short days after we got back from California.

I tried unsuccessfully to find a new job over the summer. I really prayed about it and asked God to provide me with the place He wanted me to be. I sent in TONS of resume's and didn't get any bites. Competition is really fierce these days I guess. In the end, I am here at the school where I've been for the last 3 years and I hooked a weekend waitress gig at Ian's Pub to pick up the slack. I guess for now, this is exactly where God wants me to be. So I give in, the white flag is flying.

Ed and I are in the same place we were back in March, separated but in no hurry to file for divorce. He is doing his thing and I am doing mine. We are getting along fine for the girls' sake and I think we are handling it well. I am lonely and feel kinda like I have a lot of nervous energy quite often, but all in all, I am doing fine. I am slowly learning to love myself again and that's a blessing in itself right there. I am a firm believer that if we don't love ourselves, then we can't possibly love someone else. So I continue to work on Lisa and life continues to be ok. I am going to be just fine.

I have been tinkering with the notion of returning to school. I think now would be an excellent time to do so and time is going to pass anyway, so it might as well pass while I am getting an education. Thing is I can't decide what I want to do. I really wanted to finish the path I started with the Nutritional Consultant thing, but I have been thinking more and more about getting my RN or a BS in Nutritional Science, then again I think I would enjoy radiology. Decisions, decisions....

So there you have it, a short recap of the past few months. I am sort of dreading Fall. I love Prep Football and of course my Colts, but there is not too much about the next several months that gets me too excited with the exception of Christmas. The thing that I am dreading is the Holidays for my kids. I am not sure I have what it takes to get through the Season. It seems so sad that we won't be spending it together as a family this year. I can't help but doubt my decisions at times like this. But I am a tough old gal and I think I will find a way to make it memorable for my girls in spite of our situation.

So looking forward to a new school year and a fresh new batch of Freshman and hoping that God has something really good in store for me coming up.


Heather said...

so glad you updated! i was seriously just thinking about how you've been scarce lately. i get it now, back to work time. you are in my prayers...lots of love!

Anonymous said...

Bravo. Keep trucking on.