Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Verbal Barf

Come on now....we've all had it at some point or another, right? And boy, oh boy did I ever just have it tonight. The result of a very long and very stressful day no doubt. I think everyone within 2 city blocks could hear these words somewhere off in the distance:

"Tharrrrrr she blows matey!!!!"

And as much as I hate to admit it, I did blow with a string of profanities that would surely curl your hair. It's just that I have people coming at me from all directions telling me what I need to do, what I should do, what I have to do and how to do it best. I got people giving me unwanted advice and people talking about my situation with other people. So, unless I ask for it, please don't offer me your sage advice. I don't wanna hear it....all it does is stress me out even more trying to make all of you happy by trying to follow your advice. I should add that I truly do appreciate it when people ask me how I am doing or how I am holding up. Knowing that you are thinking of me gives me great comfort. It's just dishing out the advice that makes me cringe.

Anyway, since I got my panties all up in a wad, I decided that the best thing to do was to come here and type. Get it out, let it out, and while I am here I am going to make a quick gratitude list. Because in all the crap, there has got to be something I am grateful for right? So here goes:

1) To God who is carrying me because I can't even walk right now.
2) To my kids for being the inspiration that keeps me moving forward
3) To my job, that I still have in this failing economy when so many people I know have lost theirs.
4) To my friends who are keeping me afloat and who listen to me whine incessantly about my misery. "Whoa is me", right?
5) To good music that "takes me away to that special place".
6) To the great weather we had last Saturday and Sunday.
7) To Twix candy bars for getting me through the afternoons when I can hardly move.
8) To Facebook for keeping me sane the past month. Thanks for the laughs!
9) To exercise which has been a great stress reliever for me.
10) To my texting've given me a slither of hope to hang on to and reminded me that I used to be somebody once upon a time. Thank you for that :)

So there you have it. I found 10 things I could be grateful for, even tonight, and I feel better already! I encourage you to stop what you are doing right now and make a list too, it always brings you out of yourself long enough to appreciate even the smallest of things in your life. By journaling and making gratitude lists, we can eliminate stress so that we don't end up having verbal barf like I did tonight. Good Luck!